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Thursday, June 26, 2014

the tiredness

Aku penat.....penat sangat...bukan tahap penat sangat lagi.....tapi tahap super penat.....

Aku penat since weeks before my big sis' wedding.....continued with my lil' SIL's wedding....and continued with the never ending works at school and chores at home....and continued with this coming ramadhan with all the kenduri and tahlil before it....

Oh God.....sometimes I think I heard my body cried for rest but my mind keep telling me 'dunia bukan tempat untuk berehat'....


I'm at the state where my body aches whole but I cannot stop doing things for there are loads of unfinished bussines here and there....

I'm at the state where I ate half dulang of nasi campur for myself keep remind me I need food to reboost my energy, to regain my breastmilk and to fulfill my stomach....and it end at the toilet bowl because I'm so tired and I throw out everything inside my stomach....

Aku tak pernah rasa penat macam ni sekali....where I woke up at 4 in the morning bukan untuk tahajud...but to finish my school work and stay awake the whole day to settle my house, go to school, prepare everything for my little family and only to find myself go to bed at earliest 11'o clock at the night....


Allah....

Sungguh aku tak mengeluh...tapi tak tertanggung rasanya tubuh.....and I'm keep worrying about my baby inside because ibu is so tired and weak....

One of my colleague always remind me.... 'Kau kena rehat....kau tu pregnant....nanti kalau collapse macam mana...'

Oh....how I really hope for a proper rest but I can't....

Allah......aku mohon kekuatan....aku mohon ketabahan....for I really trust that You will never give anyone things that they cannot handle..


Allah...aku harap.....aku harap sangat sangat....ramadhan yang bakal menjelang ni will slow down everything around.....

Aku harap sangat sangat....aku punya tenaga yang cukup untuk puasa penuh dan buat aktiviti harian dengan baik dan tenang.....

Aku harap sangat sangat......


 

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